It’s been a beautiful few days in the neighborhood. Snowed in with Mr. Delicious and my last boy, I’ve done not much more than cook and bake and dig out when my assistance was needed.
I allowed myself the time. I could have gone the other way, I suppose. I could have seen this as an opportunity to get “really serious” about writing, or work, or something like that there.
But the stillness was calling to me.
Last week I wrote about how sad I feel that my kids are growing and going. But just this morning I was thinking about how grateful I am that I wasn’t snowed in with a house full of toddlers.
I’ve done that, too.
This was better.
I’ve been reading quite a bit as well. I go through these seasons where I “check in” with all the self-help gurus, and then I get tired again and need a break.
But this was my check in time, so you’ll be happy to know that there is nothing much new there.
As always, there seems to be an awful lot of pressure to make life “meaningful” — to pursue “greatness” – to figure out what you want – what it all means, and get going making that shit happen.
But I keep coming back to the quieter place, the one that says that, instead of worrying about making life meaningful, you just kinda sorta relax into your day and notice deeply what is going on.
And appreciate that.
Every day is just so beautifully rich – exactly as it already is. Why do we need anything more, or other?
Ours is a culture of dissatisfaction, and I suppose, there is a time and a place for that kind of driving ambition.
But these days, the lingering, the languishing, the deep, deep presence of the present holds enough deliciousness all on its own.
Yes, we need to be safe. We need to work, we need to have income, we need to care for our beautiful selves.
But do we all need to make some great big mark on the world?
I invite you to consider a quieter journey. I invite you to consider deep love and appreciation and freshly baked cookies.
I invite you to notice all the sights and sounds of an ordinary live well lived. Let’s take a slumbering approach to it all. Fall deep within yourself. Ground yourself to the precious present.
Take your time. Live deeply.
Renewal will come, when you are ready, if need be.
For now, though, rest.
All is well.
photo: flickr, Oliver Kendal