I’m changing my life. I hit bottom a couple of months ago with my “business” and gave myself notice.
I couldn’t take the pushing.
I love Life After Tampons, and I know that you do, too. But all the shape-shifting in the world was not going to make it my life’s work.
I think it’s supposed to be something different than that.
Now, as far as life “bottoms” go, this was a blip. I mean, truly, I’ve held one of my children while she died.
Nothing trumps that.
And that, my love, is the first gift of Rock Bottom. When you hit the bottom, you got nowhere to go. There is no bargaining, deal-making, or manipulating that you can try that will “get you out of it.”
You have to sit with the suck.
But, if you do that, if you have NO OTHER CHOICE than to do that, you get the greatest gifts you can imagine.
You get the gift of the RISE.
And, here at Life After Tampons, we are Women Who Rise.
I allowed myself the “failure,” I allowed myself the death of my dream, I cried a lot, but I also made space for hope to reappear.
And, of course, it did — because the roots of hope are firmly planted in the bedrock of your greatness.
And your greatness begins at the bottom.
Here are some things to try when you hit Rock Bottom:
- Stay There – Don’t try to move too quickly. Actually, if you’re truly at Rock Bottom, you won’t have any other choice. You will have been slapped into stillness.
- Take Care of Yourself – Breathe. Eat well. Move your body. Restt.
- Wait for It – Slowly inspiration will appear. In my case a whole lot of “coincidences” came together. I had subbed for a flute player in a local orchestra and that turned into a full time gig! Now, playing in an orchestra has been a life-long dream of mine. Forty-two years after first putting the instrument together, my dream has come true!
- Accept Yourself – As much as I want to be a delicate flower of a “spiritual” person, it seems that my truest gifts are just kind of completely earthly. I’m a genius in the kitchen. I’m pretty good at putting ideas to paper. And, if I get up on a platform to speak, I’m gonna take you on a magical roller coaster ride through laughter, tears, and back.
But I’m NOT a tiny little yogini radiantly gliding through life.
I’m more of a blue-collar guru. My Pop Pop was a butcher. I’m the first person in the history of our family to go to college. I have size 10 feet.
I’m kind of clunky.
And I’ve survived an awful lot. I’m far from the most-damaged person who has ever lived. But I KNOW about the fall – and the RISE.
And that is where my new work seems to be taking me.
More on that soon.
In the meantime, I did want to share that I’ve created a new little offering for people who want to troubleshoot an area or two of concern in their lives. If you got trouble, you can check it out over on my Jennifer Boykin site.
Here’s the link.
photo: Fran Taylor, flickr