I’m writing to let you know that today, I celebrate 24-years of continuous sobriety. When people hear about the length of time I’ve been sober, they often say something like, “Wow. Congratulations.” And, while that is such a lovely sentiment, I never really know what to say back.
Oh, I say, “thank you,” of course. But inside I feel nothing. I’m still wondering – even after all these years – how I even got the damn disease.
But it doesn’t really matter how I FEEL about alcoholism. What matters is what I DO about my alcoholism.
And here is my resolve:
We stay sober under any and all conditions.
Over the years, there have been a whole lot of “conditions” to not drink at. My wedding (Sorry you missed that, by the way. Uncle Gary gave me away.) Our first baby. Her death. The births of Boys A, then B, then C.
A whole bunch of other stuff like divorce, the terrible frightening reality of life as a single mother.
Blah, blah blah. Blah blah blah blah.
We stay sober under any and all conditions. (click to tweet) It doesn’t matter what the day brings, at the end of it, I go to bed a sober woman.
So, today, on this 24th anniversary of my continuous sobriety, I’m writing to thank you. I’m sorry you died, but I’m so very grateful you taught me how to live.
P.S. If you need help with the disease of alcoholism, please reach out to your healthcare provider or an organization like Alcoholics Anonymous.
Photo: Me, with treats, of course.